Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Thinking about my relationship...

I wish i could look into your eyes and say frankly dear i don't give a damn! but i can't... not now..
I stuck in the place where i want u one minute and i'm ready to leave u the next... but i stay, frozen in that moment of decision... i know i'll just wait 4 u to decide our destiny... Because if i choose to leave and i make a mistake.. if i'm wrong about u, i'll never get a second chance... or a third chance in this case... so i keep my mouth shut and i'm just glad to have some time with u...

I'm not asking you to forgive me. I'll never understand or forgive myself. And if a bullet gets me, so help me, I'll laugh at myself for being an idiot. There's one thing I do know... and that is that I love you. In spite of you and me and the whole silly world going to pieces around us, I love you. Because we're alike. Bad lots, both of us. Selfish and shrewd. But able to look things in the eyes as we call them by their right names

After u've been screw over a few time u forget ur romantic ideas and just take what comes into ur life... and that's not even true!! I haven't had bad relationships... I've had just too many Blah! relationships.. they weren't mean they care about me but there was never any excitment or connection.. at least not on my side...

You'd rather live with a silly little fool who can't open her mouth except to say "yes" or "no" and raise a passel of mealy-mouthed brats just like her. ... so be it... but that's not me.. it will never be me... i'll fight with u and kick u and make u mad 90% of the time... and u'll do the same to me... but i'm willing to bear it because i want to be with u...

I want this work.. I want it to last... but we both have to swallow our pride and give in... let go of our fears and trust....

I know that now... I just hope u find that out before is too late 4 us...

Monday, April 24, 2006

Pagano prices OtoƱo Invierno...

Que mejor??? hay que aprovechar e ir..elmejor lugar de valpo!!! a parte aeon flux en el afiche.. piola... silla there everybody!

Friday, April 21, 2006

Changes.

I dunno where i stand right now.. i dunno if i'm nervios or confuse or just fucked up!! I find myself doing things i said i'd never do... and i don't even enjoy them I only do them to see how bad and miserable I feel... i dunno why i do that.. make myself feel worst that i do... like it could make me feel better somehow... but it doesn't... it never does..
I don't to ruin what we have... i'm trying not to... but i have this feelings and thoughts that get in the way.. my selfdestructive nature...
will i get over it??
I hope im doing the right thing... i want to be with u but a big part of me wants to destroy everything.... but i feel great with what we have going... i enjoy being around u but at the same time... AHH!!! ... can somebody tell me what the hell I want?? I should write more... that would be helpfull.. but.. i can't get myself around it... find the time and moment... words have left me!!
I'll look 4 them and get back to u...