Virginia & me

*I remember one morning getting up at dawn, there was such a sense of possibility. You know, that feeling? And I remember thinking to myself: So, this is the beginning of happiness. This is where it starts. And of course there will always be more. It never occurred to me it wasn't the beginning. It was happiness. It was the moment. Right then*

Algo se despierta en mi cada vez que veo "The Hours" de Sthepen Daldry... La representacion de Virginia Woolf me lleva a lugares que siempre pienso que he superado pero me basta escuchar la voz de la kidman decir "Leonard" con ese acento ingles y there I am.. back... y con cada una de esas frases me empiezo a hundir y buscar un rio cercano... Hay muchas frases que ese personaje dice que siento desde lo mas profundo de mi ser...

"You call ME ungrateful? My life has been stolen from me. I'm living in a town I have no wish to live in... I'm living a life I have no wish to live... How did this happen?"... solo que my town no es un lugar especifico.. no es viña, ni La Serena... es solo donde estoy en ese preciso momento....

"If I were thinking clearly, Leonard, I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, in the deep dark, and that only I can know. Only I can understand my condition. You live with the threat, you tell me you live with the threat of my extinction. Leonard, I live with it too".. como le explicas a alguien q no es depresivo.. que no sabe lo q es despertar in your shoes every day lo que sientes?... asi... solo yo puedo entender mi condicion... But if it is a choice between (insert location here) and death, I choose death.

"I've been attended by doctors, who inform me OF MY OWN INTERESTS." Who hasn't??

"A woman's whole life in a single day. Just one day. And in that day her whole life"

y sin duda mi favorita "Someone has to die in order that the rest of us should value life more. It's contrast"... la escuche en mi mente cuando fallecio mi abuelo... la volvi a escuchar cuando murio mi abuela.. cuando han muerto amigos.... so now i value life more than ever... solo me queda una persona a quien perder... y no quiero perderla. "It's a terrible thing, to outlive your entire family"

Asi que asi soy... solo una chica buscando un rio... siempre buscando un rio... aunque a veces... a ratos... siento q este momento... este instante es la felicidad.

"Dear Leonard. To look life in the face, always, to look life in the face and to know it for what it is. At last to know it, to love it for what it is, and then, to put it away. Leonard, always the years between us, always the years. Always the love. Always the hours"